
I'm having some troubles. I posted my story here before, but I'll do a quick recap. My husband cheated with a co worker. There was only one sexual encounter, but heavy flirting and text messages back and forth for a month before the affair, and then about a month after until I found it. He regrets it and there isn't anymore contact between them. We really wants to work on the marriage so I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt and trying my best to save our marriage.
The last couple of days however, it's been really hard. I find that most things he does or says is annoying me. I've been in a crappy mood. The affair and the details my husband has given me is all I can think about. I know I'm not ready to "forgive" him yet, but I don't really want to be sad or pissed off with him all the time either.
I guess maybe I feel that he's coping with everything, and I'm still here hurting about it. It's not fair and maybe that's where the resentment is coming from. I really don't want to feel like this and I honestly do want to move forward with our life.
I'm in an emotional rut right now I guess and I don't know how to get over it. I really hate feeling this way.