08-17-2008, 05:31 PM
Join Date: Aug 2008
| | feeling much guilt and shame, pls help.
hello guys and gals,
this is my first post here but i've been dealing with this problem for about 4 months on my own. first off i love my wife more then life itself and we have a beautiful 10 month old daughter named Isabella.
here goes, about 4 months gao my wife took the baby to tampa to visit her sister. while she was gone i got this wild hair up my but to go get a "massage". it was an obsession i had for a while but never went through with it before. i dont know where these feeling came from but they were there. i felt like they would never go away until i just did it.
boy, what a mistake. i went throught with it..there was no kissing or sex or anything jyst the usual "happy ending". The feeling of shame and guilt hit me immediatly after. i have been trying so hard to bury it and think to myself that mistakes happen and you sould learn from them..which i have, believe me. however, a part of me wants to tell here but would it be selfish? i feel its my burden and if i dont have to hurt here i shouldnt. she would never find out but i still know. it just makes me feel so un worthy to even be married to such a great and beautiful person. I have learned from this however and nothing like this will ever happen again..ever.
some of your advice would be greatly appreciated