Re: after d-day stuff..
so my wife has started getting some of her stuff together, and shes planning to move the bedroom stuff out this weekend...
as much as i need this to happen to keep from going down a dark path, it feels alot like the day i found out about the affair.
and as much as i need the reality to set in for her to help get her out of the fog, the reality is setting in for me that there is a possibility of this ending completely.
although i do have hope, and iknow my wife well enough, and have seen some progress, there are still some unknown variables.
like she could like living on her own.
or she could break up with him, and in the midst of actually healing, find some one else.
but she mentioned again how she just feels lost and confused. and how shes gonna fall flat on her face.
the OMX called me today and told me how a totally different coworker mentiond that my wife said how controlling hes becoming.
i still place my bets that the holidays will be it. but this week is becoming alot harder than imagined. i want to be angry and start questioning everything because i might not get another chance. i want to yell and scream...
but as the 180 says, i cant back off of the hard earned changes. i have to avoid angry outbursts. as much as i want to get angry, if we fight before she leaves, then itll just justify it more in her mind, as opposed to giving her a good image to stick with until..