Stick to your boundary, Apple. You are correct: you deserve so much more than waiting for someone who is carrying on with some else.
I fight the loneliness, Jellybeans. I fight the urge to beg for him. I fight to resist ANY contact with him. I have not been in contact with him for 3 days now, other than a very brief, less than a minute talk about the kids. I only saw him for a moment this morning as he left the house (to go be with her, I'm sure) but I did not speak to him. I am avoiding as much contact as possible with him. Even though it hurts, I gotta rip that band-aid right off. It hurts so bad that I have to be alone everyday and he gets to be with someone. He's not lonely or miserable or sad. It's not fair that we all have to suffer for his actions. I hope he rots.
::Smack!:: No begging, ok? The loneliness--totally normal. You will have ups and downs. You are going through a lot and SO much BS you don't need to be. When will you see the lawyer?
He is in the FOG. That is why you much detach/remove yourself as an option. The sooner, the better. He is NOT going to feel the loss of you until he realizes you are gone. Trust me.
Don't worry, I have not begged him. Sometimes I do think I should but I know that will do no good. I know that will only make me look weak and pitiful. It's not easy standing strong though when I so bad just want his arms around me.
I last spoke to a lawyer a week ago but I could not afford to hire that one, so I am still looking.
You know what?
He doesn't know what he wants right now.
He is in la la land with this new babe.
She lives at home with her two kids?
Not gonna last.
and she loves someone else. My H and hers affair lasted from Nov 2010 to Feb 2011 (this is what she has told me) She says she ended it with my H b/c she did not want to ruin a family. My husband has developed some sort of high school type of infatuation on her and continues to pursue her. She lets him pursue her in spite of me asking her to just go away.
I read one of your old posts and something came to mind:
Do you think that the OW is using your husband to shake things up with her "boyfriend?"
I dont know honestly. I secretly follow her twitter page which is full of little tweets about how she loves this guy and how she wants to be with him. She has told me, in our email communications, that my husband is trying to help her win back this guy. Which I know is not the case. He is only playing "nice friend" to get her to want him.