06-20-2011, 09:20 PM
Join Date: Jun 2011
Location: Thorndale, Texas
| | Re: Bad day - need to reach out
Originally Posted by SecretTears
It's been 1 month past DDay and I have gone through the denial stage (in .5 seconds) and I thought that my intense anger was fading a bit these last few days. Had some normal conversation with WH and even a hug over the weekend. Great. Today, I went to the Dr. for the std check.
I was anxious about it all night. I broke down in the Dr. office and the whole thing was so humiliating (fortunately my dr. is wonderful, calm and comforting, can't say enough good things about how she handled the visit today).
Anyway so now again all my emotions have resurfaced. I am crying and really sad about what happened. I am so mad at my WH for putting me through this and for potentially giving me some nasty disease. I am doubting again my ability to ever forgive him. And the dr said it could take up to 2 weeks for the tests to come back, I am so anxious and distraught, I don't know how I will make it that long.
Thank you for reading/listening. It feels good to get it off my chest.
Sorry that you had to endure the pain. Have faith in Jesus that everything is going to be alright. I know you are in really bad pain. I want to offer words of comfort. Pray to Jesus for his touch in your life. He will help you get over this.