Not saying that I would but I could understand how some ppl can say F it!!!
((((((SF)))))) I can see how as well...
but think of it this way, any amount of pain you endure in your life is better than the blankness that possibly goes along with death.
Don't do that.
It's just a trick of the light.
Try doing a headstand (up against the wall if you need to) literally and you will get a better perspective. While you're there, if you feel the urge to laugh, don't miss the opportunity. Because now not only does life s*ck, but you're upside down. (It's hard to do the f*ck it thing in that position by the way.) Unless you succumb to apoplexy.
Dealing with your husband? OW? inner thoughts? All that and more?
Good Morning Riverside, Last night was not a good one at all. Inner thought and dreams are eating me alive. The OW would never come near me so she is not a problem. I did learn last night that she quit last wk end. He blurted it out when I ask about the NC after he got defensive when I ask where he has been. He said he was going some place and it took longer. When I don't call or ask he tells me that I should have. So when I did he became defensive and start saying he is a grown man and dos not have to tell me everything. Do I think he is still involved with other woman. I'm not sure. I would say no because I think thats why she quit because she didn't want to be around him if he wouldn't leave me. However you never can tell and that part I'm not even going to try and figure out.
Actually I'm waiting to see myself so I can just call it quits if it does then I don't hav to go through these mix emotions anymore.
((((((SF)))))) I can see how as well...
but think of it this way, any amount of pain you endure in your life is better than the blankness that possibly goes along with death.
I'd rather exist in pain than not exist at all.
I know and I agree. To me thats the easy way and chicken way out I might add. My sister tried that last yr going through her deviorce and it really made me look at her as weak. Now I can understand her pain and she was not so weak but in alot of pain. the pain is better than death because at least you live to give it another try. To do better and be better.
I always say everyday above ground is a good one.
I wonder how many people contemplate suicide during a divorce. I know I definitely wondered WTF am I doing on this Earth anyway, my life is over... there has got to be a correlations, I bet.
Don't do that.
It's just a trick of the light.
Try doing a headstand (up against the wall if you need to) literally and you will get a better perspective. While you're there, if you feel the urge to laugh, don't miss the opportunity. Because now not only does life s*ck, but you're upside down. (It's hard to do the f*ck it thing in that position by the way.) Unless you succumb to apoplexy.
If nothing else Homemaker it was funny. I fell more times than I satyed up....lol my balance is not so hot. I actually look for reasons to laugh these days and smile. Even when at my lowest point I smile at someone else. When they smile back if just for that minute my world is a bit brighter.
My child saw me crying last night.........that was th worst part. He is a worrier. At 9 he worries and I don't like that. It broke my heart a little bit more when he looked at me and just grabbed me and hugged me and said I LOVE YOU, because I don't want my child to worry about me.
I wonder how many people contemplate suicide during a divorce. I know I definitely wondered WTF am I doing on this Earth anyway, my life is over... there has got to be a correlations, I bet.
I'm starting to see that Jelly. It's so weird how the betrayal from a spouse and contemplation of divorce will send a person in to a tail spin like this.
I'm not this person yet I'm here at this point in my life and it makes me feel weak.
My ex husband made several comments to me during our separation/divorce that he wondered what the point of life was/what was he doing here too. I guess we both had the same feelings.
But it's not worth it. I had a relative who was a suicide and the devastation it causes is MASSIVE.
My ex husband made several comments to me during our separation/divorce that he wondered what the point of life was/what was he doing here too. I guess we both had the same feelings.
But it's not worth it. I had a relative who was a suicide and the devastation it causes is MASSIVE.
I'm sorry to here that Jelly. Understood just the thought is poison. I guess my husband may be having all types of mix emotions. He says he hurts aswell for what he has done that he wishes it never happen. That he hates what its doing to me. That he thinks about it everyday and it stresses him out to but some times I wonder because when I ask questions about it he clams up.
Please understand that there is a lot of rage in that despondancy. Anger is a powerfull motivator and if you can't or won't turn it on the one who has hurt you, you will turn it on yourself. Be sure your feelings are directed to the one who deserves them and in the proper proportion. When you are crying, ask yourself where are the tears coming from. Is it just self pity (which is ok, somethimes we need it) or frustration ( like a tantrum, which is also ok, go ahead and have one. Try tearing up a phone book)?
Or are you hurting yourself because you can't hurt him or her?
SF, have you read my blog post on healing from an affair at Improve My Marriage: Affairs: Healing from an Affair
I also share the experiences of one man from this forum whose wife had a 12 year affair, and what he did to heal their marriage.
So where are things at between you and your husband now?
I'm glad you tried and got a laugh.
Now get your son to do it to and then look at each other upside down. It is the funniest thing.
It's good to feel whatever you're feeling...you have to know you can allow yourself to feel pain and still be safe. If pain becomes life threatening then you can't work your way through it. So do whatever it takes to make it not so...therapy, a friend, a walk, music, writing, tenderizing meat. My favorite was going down to our old garage and taking a shovel and hitting the walls and shouting. It's been a while since I did that, yesterday a bear walked through a front yard. I guess the wild animals started to feel safe again around here. :-o
Sometime life sucks!!! 
the pain is better than death because at least you live to give it another try. To do better and be better.
