I would tell him I've found a great forum that has given me tons of useful info about marriage. Just see what he says. Posted via Mobile Device
He is not asking for transparency, I am offering it, but he is still not wanting to talk to me so I have drafted an email. Way wondering if I would be wise to include the details of TAM. Posted via Mobile Device
You must understand that nothing you say is going to convince you husband of your seriousness to repair your relationship. Coming from a betrayed spouse, know that the hurt your huias and experienced was extremely painful, and for some unbearable. Your actions are what's gonna convince him.
Right now, expect that he may not want to open up to you. But do the heavy lifting not only for your husband, but for your own personal recovery as well. You have no guarantees if he will come around. But remember, the true meaning of love is doing something for someone with the expectation of reciprocation. But you have to act and not say. There are no guarantees. Posted via Mobile Device
I didn't at first but I came here looking for help dealing with my AP still running around inside my head, and that was several months after D Day. I knew that at that point in time my W wouldn't understand and I knew that I was over the affair I just couldn't vacate the OW from inside my head. Once the people here helped me and I got to a better place I realized what a great site this is and started mentioning it in passing to my W. I was (still am) spending a lot of time here and I wanted her to know but I didn't want to say the words, "there's something I need to tell you" because I knew it would stop her heart. So I just kept mentioning it until she asked, she has since joined herself and post occasionally.
I actually really wanted the transparency. There was a period where she didn't know about it, I wasn't hiding it but I didn't disclose either. I found that I didn't like having something she didn't know - having a secret - I was relieved when she finally logged on and read all my post.
So to answer your question. It depends. How much you need to air things for yourself here unfettered for a while, how much help your spouse needs and if you think this site will provide some, how you feel about having a "secret" again. I will add that I think it really helped my wife to read everything I had posted, she knew everything I said here was totally honest and she says it really helped her to understand where I was emotionally.
Last thing - as the wayward always error on the side of transparency - always!!
"I know you don't want to talk to me right now, but I want you to know I will do ANYTHING to try to make this work.
I've found a great forum that has given me tons of useful info about marriage.
I want to share everything with you. Here is access to all that I use to communicate with anyone outside the house other than my cell, which you may take and read anytime you like.
My work email you open internet explorer and put address.com in the address bar, user name is ######, and pw is $$$$$$$$$
My facebook access is under my work email giw@HGYHGFF.com pw ####### - if you want me to I will get rid of it altogether - I really only use it to talk to sisters and a few friends
My home email TFHHTV@hotmail.com pw #######
Other than that I've only been using the internet to search for help or how to's
I don't expect nor need a response to this, but I look forward to when you are able/willing to talk again.
Love Your wife"
of course the actual email has the addresses and pws in it lol
I did have that in there offered as well but took it out.
At the beginning of all this and maybe one of the excuses I gave myself for the A, I felt like I didn't know my H, like he never let me in, but through this process I have realized how much I do know him and I just think he would see the offer to do that as either hollow, or a suggestion that I have been in contact with OM up til now, which I have not.
I had "There is also suggetion that I do a letter of No contact, basically it is a letter I write to say I will not ever contact him again, and then YOU send it. I have already verbally told him this and have not been in contact with him since, other than to tell him to stop contacting me when he tried a few weeks after. I would do this if you want, would you want to? "
I decided to include the offer. Just got impatient waiting for an answer. I have been anxious to send that email to him for a while now. Funny thing is I don't even think he has read it yet LOL
If you have suggestions on the no contact letter, or what it should say or can direct me to an example that would be great. I tend not to be very good with words and don't want to say anything more to upset my H.
I read your thread and am sorry you are going through the things you are. Thank you for the support. I really am trying to "Do the heavy lifting" as I keep reading here, I just don't know what heavy lifting to do......I really hope that he sees what I do for what it is and not thinking I am just "putting on a show" as he has previously stated.
He read the email today.......I am so nervous for his reaction. I will not know if he decides to check up on me unless he tells me, and I wont know how he feels about the email even since he wont talk to me. I am praying and it seems it is all I can do