I feel guilty...
I feel guilty, I'm married but I'm having an affair. I love my wife, I'd die for her, but I feel like I got married too soon in my life. I spent most of my young life either studying for school or working my ass off at my job. I didn't date that much when I was younger, so I didn't have much of a sex life. Once I was finally able to secure my life with a good paying job I met a great girl. We dated three years and then got married. I wasn't too thrilled of getting married, it wasn't really my desire to do so, she was the one that was pushing me into it, but at the time it didn't seem like a bad idea. I loved her very much ( I still do), so I didn't put too much thought into whether it was a good idea or not. It's not until two years later that I realized that I got married too soon before I got to really enjoy life. Most people go through multiple partners and accumulate years of sexual experience and fulfillment before getting married. I did not. And just so that you fully understand my situation, it wasn't like I couldn't get into relationships when I was younger. I'm actually a tall and good looking guy, but I am slightly socially shy (and maybe a little nerdy too). But in my youth I was more concerned about studying and establishing my life than getting laid, even though it was definitely on my mind.
My wife has had multiple boyfriends in her past. I've only had at most two before her, one was less than a year during high school and not filled with much sex, and the other was two months during college. I don't begrudge her for having more sexual partners than me, I just wish I could have felt more fulfillment in my sexual life as well. As a result, I have started seeing other women. I have been doing this for about six months now. I always use protection, I would never endanger my wife's life. I feel guilty for doing this, but before I was doing this I was unhappy. And its not like we don't have sex, we do, and its good. I just didn't feel like a “normal” human being who was supposed to go through many relationships before getting married.
What should I do? Should I get a divorce?
Am I a bad person? I'm aware of what I'm doing is immoral. I do love her.