Qwilleran

I totally get where you're coming from Sparkles422.

My marriage of 25 years crashed when my STBXWW told me "there's no passion and I'm bored". No other explanation given or remorse shown.

Flash forward to today 2 years since DDay and my daughter just informs me that my STBXWW is thinking of leaving the POM since "he doesn't show me affection". I'm not only going to jump on the Karma Bus, hell I'll gladly sit in the driver's seat. As you said Sparkles422... Karma is a b_ _ _ _ _. It does come round.

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notreadytoquit

Is that karma bus stopping in Toronto by any chance? Because I would like to get on it too

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Oregon38

I think my cheating ex wife has not changed during her affairs. But I did. Finally, after almost 17 years of emotional and mental abuse by her I recognized her true colors. I can see now with more clarity what happened over all those years.

She chose to cheat because she didn't want address her real issues. Instead, the "unhappiness" with me was used to picture me as the bad guy and to give her a reason to exit the marriage. It's much easier to blame somebody else than looking at your own faults and failures. She's still on the search for something she already had in our relationship but couldn't see that it was there.

Unfortunately, this is already the second time this happened. Her mother did the same thing to her dad. That makes me wonder whether history will repeat itself again in the future. I hope and pray that my daughter doesn't suffer any permanent emotional damages and earns some of those traits too..

And it also looks like the Kharma bus gets the tires changed so it might reach her during the snowy season. She is soooo jealous of her 25 year old mexican boy toy because he's on a different shift now and is working together with several female co-workers he already had a relationship with. I'm sure she doesn't like looking those ladies in the eye. He, on the other hand, is also jealous of her because she still continues her internet chats. If she's so happy with the "love of her life" why still getting all that attention online?

I'm praying for my daughter to be resistent enough to all those things and for my strength to be there for her when she needs me.

Hoosier

[QUOTE=Oregon38;480381]She chose to cheat because she didn't want address her real issues. Instead, the "unhappiness" with me was used to picture me as the bad guy and to give her a reason to exit the marriage. It's much easier to blame somebody else than looking at your own faults and failures. She's still on the search for something she already had in our relationship but couldn't see that it was there.



This is so true, exactly what happened to me. I am forced to sit and watch as she tells anyone that will listen what a bad husband I was. Tells them that I kicked her out of the house, she had no where to go but the POSOM house. (forgets to mention that I offered R three different times) I struggle daily (120 days from DDay) with my new life without her, but it is getting better. I am fortunate that my kids, youngest is 20, understand what happened and are all about comforting me. I cry for what could have been, I did wake up, I did change, she never even tried to save our marriage, she would give me no chance. I and you will be better, we will find someone who cherish us and we them. It is a b###ch tho.

Sparkles422

qwilleran:

I can't wait for that Karmic treatment but I wish I didn't feel this way. It says I still feel anger and sadness.

This morning I woke up angry. Ex is enjoying himself away for 2 months visiting relatives etc...and I am stuck having to re-create myself. Yeah, I am feeling sorry for myself but I will get out of that. Just need to feel these dang feelings and move on. I want it over though. Time.

I can't wait for Karma.

Shooboomafoo

Wow,, umm hellooooo Janie!!
Okay, I was going to post, but where am I again??

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soldiergirl

They must all read the same book of ''crap excuses to try and justify an affair''!!

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If I believed in karma, that would be my dream job too.

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Oregon38

I know we will be better with time. Did my ex give me any chances? yes, but they were never real. I basically was left with no options at all.

I can't blame her for cheating on me. I actually feel sorry for her that she had only the cheating and blaming as a coping tool available to her. No constructive coping mechanism was considered. Unfortunately, she didn't realize that she created a big mess for everybody involved with those ineffective tools. I wish she would have known better but unfortunately she never learned.

Actually, who would intentionally "cut" his/her emotional body open like a surgery in order to expose the unhappiness with themselves, true feelings and weaknesses to their partner? It's much easier to project all those problems onto the partner and blame him/her for the cheater's character flaws.

In the end it is just an escape for the cheater from reality to address their own self. Something they totally forget is that they are with themselves 24/7, unhappy. And they can "drug themselves up" only so much.