Re: why won't she just leave me alone?
Of course she's gonna bash you. She has to convince a lot of people that she made the right decision.
Bravo to you to realize that she is, uh..."less" than what you deserve, but a part of me thinks that she is finally facing the reality of the situation-that her fantasy of true happiness on the other side of the fence is just that, nothing more than a fantasy, and she realizes that she f**ked up big time, and she may want you to take her back, but she has to still feel that she could control the circumstances, i.e., "You're such an a**hole for what you did and drove me to cheat and leave you, but you had better consider yourself DAMN LUCKY that I am even entertaining the thought of R."
Even if she had an epiphany and begged you on her life to take her back and you did, she would be telling anyone who will listen that she was the one who took YOU back, and you were the one begging on your knees.
"I've listened to preachers, I've listened to fools, I've watched all the dropouts, who make their own rules..."