Re: Question for the Forum
There are cheaters and non-cheaters. Not every cheater is going to cheat (most will though) but all non-cheaters are not going to have affairs. Drunken one night stand, maybe if they are stupid. Anyway maybe your wife just thinks it's morally wrong. Despite the worst that you always see out here, there are people whose nature makes cheating impossible. And it has nothing to do with what kind of an a55 you are marred to. It is about selfishly keeping your honor, because honor is where you get a lot of your self worth.
Here is the thing, start to communicate with your wife. I mean make it a daily part of your life. Talk to her, deep conversations. Ask her what she is feeling and what she was feeling. Ask her to be honest with you, and be strong enough to hear it. This will either dissuade your fear or reinforce it. You should be doing this anyway. Most women bond through communication first. Practice and practice hard. Also make it a point to date her. Like you did when you were courting her. You should always be courting her.
One other thing, you need to have a broad life, it can't all just be your wife and work. (Now that doesn't mean neglect her like you have) It does however mean you should have a strong support system of friends and family. And some interests that bring you joy. This will give you some confidence that even if she did cheat on you your life would go on. That helps with the fear. Again that doesn't mean playing video games all night. However if you have some of those long talks I am talking about, or if you took her out for dinner in drinks the night before, I don't think she will care as much. It's when you go from work to games to sleep, that is where there is a problem.