Re: Confession time...and update.
Okay... I have had a hard time coming back to update for two reasons, One being every time i do an update its like i Jinx myself. i also have been shy because of the earlier posts with Bowser attacking me about lying to you guys... i have been less willing to open up about my life further. I hope you all understand.
I lurk regularly and post occasionally... But for the most part i don't know if i can be as vulnerable again.
WH has acted perfectly, especially since he is no longer having withdrawls from weed. I have successfully quit too. I am on good medications, I cant remember if i listed them before, but they are mild, but still do the trick.
We have so much more money now than we know what to do with. All money stresses of not having enough are gone, and we are routinely putting 400-600$ away a month. In no time we will have full amount for property. Not sure when, but we have managed to save over 3,000$ in just a matter of two and a half months.
He is so present in the family. He told me this last weekend that he thinks now we will make it. That from his perspective he is both happy with me, family and most importantly himself. He told me he is finally acting in a way he is proud of. And it shows.
He thought of his mother on mothers day, and got her a huge bouquet of flowers, and I told him not to buy me any. That i rather a plant that will live. I still have not picked the plant. Im thinking of another Meyre Lemon. I had one and it died tragically from my mother over watering it while she house sat a while back.
We bought a nice canvas bell tent and a little hunters stove and we had the most epic camping trip at Sol Duc this last weekend. It was wet and magical and.... Honestly im not so angry anymore. I dont look at infidelity websites quite so much... I dont have livid feelings for my husband crop up at certain moments of the day, or trigger as often. I finally feel like im given a chance to heal because he stopped messing up so bad.
Things are on the up, and i have true hope...(fingers crossed i dont jinx myself here) that we just might get through this.
Oh...and got rid of the shed as a little husband sized dog house and moved all lawn equipment into it. So now my husband feels more secure that phase is over with. I think this means we are currently in the Reconciliation instead of just aspiring to it.