01-25-2012, 09:39 AM
Join Date: Nov 2011
| | Re: Revenge Cheating
Originally Posted by K.K.
I know I could never cheat on my husband. I honestly have no desire to be with someone else. At this point, the thought of it makes me sick. I really don't want to hurt him, I just want him to feel what I am feeling. I want him to understand the devastation I feel.
I think some of the hurt comes from the disappointment of who he was and what he stood for. This is a man, whom I thought, would never in a million years cheat. He just had too much integrity. He is so honest in everything he does. He was known for his integrity. If I had been given a million dollars ( and I could use it!) and asked to bet it....I wouldn't even have hesitated to bet against the fact that he would cheat. That's how much faith I had in him. If the words hadn't come out of his own mouth, no one could have convinced me he did it. I wouldn't even have listened.
Soooo, all of that said, I know I couldn't lower myself to cheat. I couldn't disappoint my children and family in that way. Cheating is dirty and disgusting. It's embarrassing, and in ways I feel sorry for him. I know he is disappointed in himself too. I guess that should be enough.
K, you made an old Master Sergeant tear up. I thought the same thing about the love of my life and my best friend. This is worst then having lost soldiers in combat. One of my duties in combat was to gather all the soldiers together, after they suffered a lost and help them process what the hell just happened. All for the purpose of getting them mentally, spiritual, and emotionally prepared to go out again in 12 hours and I was damn good in helping these soldiers prepare for their next mission. As much as that sucked, the pain that my spouse caused in me is beyond anything I faced in combat.