02-18-2012, 02:31 PM
Join Date: Jan 2012
| | I'm running away like he did, am i doing the right thing tho?
H and i have been seperated and living apart for 2 months now.
He told me he had a ONS while away, then said it was not true he had said it to hurt me a while after, its a long story and a huge mess, i have posted most of the sorry story on another thread.
I love my H deeply and miss him every second, but he can't take responsibility, he blames issues he has with anger on me, he wont accept he needs help, he needs to change in order for a R to work.
I am estranged from most of my family and the ones that are around dont treat me well, i am ignored by the people i live with, which wasnt a problem before i lost my H and my contract at work was axed (work finishes @ the end of this month) due to company cuts.
Everything has gotten to me a bit since christmas and i have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and severe depression, the doctor has signed me off work.
So I've been existing mostly in my bed going round and round in circles with H, and today i snapped i went online and booked myself 3 weeks in The Algarve alone.
Now im freaking out a bit, i have travelled alone in the past but never stayed away alone, i plan to just vanish without a word to anyone especially H.
Am i crazy for doing this?