I need to tell the story about the last OM she revealed, two days ago. It was the last she told me about but it was the first OM she had sex after we became lovers. Now it is the most hurting because of the nature of that affair if it can be called an affair.
It happened before we were married. it was roughly about a year after we met and become lovers and about 5 months before we married.
For all of her other affairs it could be said that we were having marital problems, or Wife and OM had some connection, but for this first one there was not such excuses.
Like I said before, during those days she was crazy about me. She could'nt stand a day without seeing me. I had to go away for a week, when I came back she was like she was in the hell for a week and now jesus himself (me) was taking her to back to heaven. She was deeply in love with me, seriously.....
She had sex with the other guy when she was feeling like that for me. No it did not happend when I was away.
One day she goes to visit a male friend of hers for years, a couple blocks away from her home. Friend has a long term girlfriend. That day girlfriend is left him and he is really depressed. My wife says that she does not remember much but here are the things she remember.
-We were sitting on the floor. He was sad about his girl friend.
-Not long after he started asking me to have sex with him.
-Nothin else, no mention of becoming boyfriend and girlfriend, just sex right there.
-No mention of him having any feeling towards me other than wanting to have sex with me,
-He said just having sex once right now is all he wants because he hopes to get back with his girlfriend and he knows that I am very deeply in love with my lower, sweetandsour.
-I said to him I don't want to do it. More than once, I really didn't want to do it.
-I just wanted to leave, it was getting really uncomfortable.
-Next thing I remember, we are laying on the floor, naked, may be a kiss but not much foreplay. He puts a condom and starts doing me in missionary.
-Then we continue on our sides.
-And back to missionary again. I don't enjoy it at all. I look in to my watch and asked him, "will it take longer, finish it already please."
-He is surprized and says OK I am coming soon. but not sure if he really did after what I said.
-I did'nt feel anything sexual, did'nt want to do it, did'nt persue an orgasm, nothing.
-And I was not looking for any extra attention from him by letting him f*** me. I did'nt like it.
-When I am dressing up, he asked about you. I told him that I am in love with sweetandsour, if he proposes to me I am going to marry him.
-Then I left, came home, phoned you and we had one of our long sweet talks on the phone may be for an hour.
-I didn't see or talked to him after that. He did'nt tried to contact me either.
-I don't know why I did it. It was like giving a favor to a friend. I knew it was wrong so I hid it from you.
Around that episod, we were very close. We were seing each other daily. Having sex regularly, It was honeymoon time, before marriage, she was in FOG with me.
If she would say, I found him atractive and for a moment I gave into my animal side in the heat of the moment and I enjoyed the sex part of it, or the attention I received. I would understand, It would make sense, it would be more real. For some of her other affairs she freely admitted that, it was just monkey wild sex and at once she came in less then a minute after another OM entered her without much foreplay. Or she admitted that she liked the attention part from another OM. So I believe her when she says that I didn't wanted, get or enjoyed anything from this one.
She's crazy with no boundaries. Why try to make sense of it? This is the woman you are married to and refuse to leave because you are crazy. You deserve each other. Posted via Mobile Device
Are you still with her? Or is she gone and you ate filing for divorce? Posted via Mobile Device
No divorce yet.
Next week she is moving to our new home. I have my home office in my parents home and I can stay there too but,... will I be with her, move to the new place ? why not, I am one stupid, spineless shell of a man, empty inside, why not.
Wtf? Do you actually have a thing she could do that would make you leave her? I mean anything? Why are you abusing yourself like this? Posted via Mobile Device
Next week she is moving to our new home. I have my home office in my parents home and I can stay there too but,... will I be with her, move to the new place ? why not, I am one stupid, spineless shell of a man, empty inside, why not.
Your either very down and out or your wife has your account password. Posted via Mobile Device
Your either very down and out or your wife has your account password. Posted via Mobile Device
I am way down,
That new home,,,,,,,,,,
my 5 year old boy loves doing carpentery, plumming kind of work, typical 5 year old boy. he and I can spend the whole day in home depot type places. He has his room and his hobby room ready with kiddy size work bench and his tool box in that new home. He calls me his best friend and his work colleague. And he is connected to his mommy in a very deep way. Should I crush his world now or later ?..................
My wife begs me in tears to move there together and start a new life in our new home. She says all were in distant past, she realise that she is sick, she is in counseling, and she loves me and in love with me.
Me,.......... there is no sweetandsour anymore, I don't know who I am.
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