Re: Im not married to the man I love
Married 20 years. He has been married to this woman for almost as long as you have been alive. Of course he is a bit bored. Of course he is flattered that you slept with him. Of course he tells you that he loves you, he probably does on one level.
He is attentive, worldly and lasts a while in bed.
This love is transient. It has no future because of your age difference and that he is married.
Well done for ending it. It is very hard to end, but do not mistake intensity for intimacy, longing is very seductive and believing that you have forbidden love is intoxicating.
If you have no feelings for your Husband, leave him without having the affair. You may still be able to be friends then.
Realise that your Lovely Engineer Affair partner can not and will not leave his children for you. His wife who had his children and supported him in every way that mattered will be devastated and the children's lives and mental health affected . Suicide is discussed here often on a BS discovery.
I am not beating you up. I want you to think about the things that an affair with a married man costs.
He is not yours.
He never will be.
Your young. made a choice to have an affair and now the consequences are going to hit you. Maybe see your Doctor and get some chemical help to help you get over the extreme sense of loss you will be feeling for your AP.
The feelings will last about 3 months. Make no decisions until you are over the dopamine hit.
Last edited by ing; 04-04-2012 at 10:09 AM.