It's been a couple of months since learning of H's EA. I feel like I am getting stronger in some ways. However, I am feeling these moments of sheer panic and I wake up(when I can get to sleep)and sit straight up. When this happens in the middle of sleeping I cant breathe, the nightmares are terrible and EVERY night. I have lost 20lbs(that I really didnt need to lose). I feel RAGE oh God the RAGE.
And its getting worse. What the H*ll is wrong with me?
You have signs and symptoms of PTSD. I counsel military members everyday who have this along with other problems. You need to go into IC for this. If not at least vent here. You behaviors are first, NORMAL for what you have gone through, second, it is your body trying to protect itself, third, it is your body reacting to a traumatic event.
You are normal in your reactions but you need to get help. If you don't Cant you will crack up and be sitting in a corner drooling and pis*ing your pants. We do not want to see you go there.
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You have signs and symptoms of PTSD. I counsel military members everyday who have this along with other problems. You need to go into IC for this. If not at least vent here. You behaviors are first, NORMAL for what you have gone through, second, it is your body trying to protect itself, third, it is your body reacting to a traumatic event.
You are normal in your reactions but you need to get help. If you don't Cant you will crack up and be sitting in a corner drooling and pis*ing your pants. We do not want to see you go there.
That doesnt make sense to me. Im functioning as usual(semi) just alot of time in the bathroom floor taking deep breaths. Yes I am experiencing anxiety and anger and last week I was numb. but Isnt PtSD from War? I dont want to overdo this. Im doing my best to keep it together. I can just feel it changing inside me. I dont care about the things I used to care alot about. I am pissed as I can be. And what's up with the nightmares?
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder could come from any traumatic event. Being is war is certainly traumatic, but so are many other things. Like finding out your spouse cheated.
PTSD can hit anyone. Paramedics and firemen who have dragged dead bodies out of cars and buildings get PTSD something awful. Posted via Mobile Device
OK I misspoke. What I meant was something like THIS. Not finding out your spouse has been ripping out your gut for the past year and a half(at least). Thats really what I meant. Its not in the same ballpark in my mind. Though if it gets much worse than this I sincerely hope someone shoots me.
I know I have PTSD from this experience. I had a panic attack just this morning. It is not as profound as a war veteran, but def a form of PTSD for you. I know what you mean about not wanting to see like you are taking it overboard....just realize that this experience has taken a toll on your sleep, weight, thoughts, and breathing. I have felt all of it and it has been 4 months of torture for me. I wake up from nightmares and they are vivid....triggers are getting the best of me most days lately.
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder could come from any traumatic event. Being is war is certainly traumatic, but so are many other things. Like finding out your spouse cheated.
No doubt its traumatic. As I have said many times just in the past couple of months "I used to think I knew what it would feel like-I was wrong. This is a brand of pain I will NEVER forget"
I know I have PTSD from this experience. I had a panic attack just this morning. It is not as profound as a war veteran, but def a form of PTSD for you. I know what you mean about not wanting to see like you are taking it overboard....just realize that this experience has taken a toll on your sleep, weight, thoughts, and breathing. I have felt all of it and it has been 4 months of torture for me. I wake up from nightmares and they are vivid....triggers are getting the best of me most days lately.
OH yes the damned triggers. They are everywhere. Heck, HE is a trigger. What can I do about that one? Dr. gave me ambien to sleep-nothing. I have a seizure disorder and not sleeping is just causing the seizures to go nuts on top of every thing else. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I always thought that PTSD was just for war too, but that is not true. It can happen whenever there is a traumatic event in your life.
I learned of husband's PA a few months ago too. I feel the same things you are. I have been in IC since it happened. My therapist helped me realize I suffered from PTSD from a traumatic event when I was a teenager, and since I have never totally dealt with that event, I can have triggers that send me back to that point in my life. H's PA has definitely done this.
Hope that is helpful...I would really look into it if I were you. I thought it was pretty silly until I did some research and now it makes a lot more sense to me.
Can't this is my world, I do this everyday. It can be PTSD. PTSD in the Diagnostic Criteria from DSM-IV-TR (this is the bible for diagnosing mental health disorders). For PTSD, one of the criteria for diagnosis, is, (2) the person's response involved intense fear, helplessness, or horror.
B. The traumatic event is persistently re-experienced in one (or more) of the following ways:
(1) Recurrent and intrusive distressing recollections of the event, including images, thoughts, or perceptions. Note: In young children, repetitive play may occur in which themes or aspects of the trauma are expressed.
(2) Recurrent distressing dreams of the event. Note: In children, there may be frightening dreams without recognizable content.
(3) Acting or feeling as if the traumatic event were recurring (includes a sense of reliving the experience, illusions, hallucinations, and dissociative flashback episodes, including those that occur on awakening or when intoxicated). Note: In young children, trauma-specific reenactment may occur.
(4) Intense psychological distress at exposure to internal or external cues that symbolize or resemble an aspect of the traumatic event
(5) Physiological reactivity on exposure to internal or external cues that symbolize or resemble an aspect of the traumatic event
C. Persistent avoidance of stimuli associated with the trauma and numbing of general responsiveness (not present before the trauma), as indicated by three (or more) of the following:
(1) Efforts to avoid thoughts, feelings, or conversations associated with the trauma
(2) Efforts to avoid activities, places, or people that arouse recollections of the trauma
(3) Inability to recall an important aspect of the trauma
(4) Markedly diminished interest or participation in significant activities
(5) Feeling of detachment or estrangement from others
(6) Restricted range of affect (e.g., unable to have loving feelings)
(7) Sense of a foreshortened future (e.g., does not expect to have a career, marriage, children, or a normal life span)
D. Persistent symptoms of increased arousal (not present before the trauma), as indicated by two (or more) of the following:
(1) Difficulty falling or staying asleep
(2) Irritability or outbursts of anger
(3) Difficulty concentrating
(4) Hypervigilance
(5) Exaggerated startle response
E. Duration of the disturbance (symptoms in Criteria B, C, and D) is more than 1 month.
F. The disturbance causes clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.
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It has been a month and a half since the initial discovery of my affair and my BS still wakes up with constant anxiety and the need to wake me up to hold him. Our counselor just prescribed him some anti-depressents/anti-anxiety pills and referred him to a counselor for PTSD.
Hopefully the advice on here from others will help. Good luck to you and sorry to hear about your current situation.
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