So those of you here on TAM who have been following our ordeal, i have made some recent discoveries in the last few days that struck an odd feeling in the pit ofmy stomach. This time i followed it and it led me to where i am right now, awake for almost 30 hours straight now, did a little reading while the hubby was "out at his friends for the night" (and still not back nor answering any calls) I found that he breached my trust and rewrote one of my most intimate journal entries on here, this that were heart wrenching for me, so i will return the favor and post a journal entry of his i happen to stumble across (along with many personal FB messages that he deleted one from a 19 yr old girl he has threatened to F***, and an oline dating website he his signed up for these are just from 2 weeks of internet history, can't imagine what else i'm missing, or have missed over ten years)
THE GREAT WOLFGAR, at his shining hour
side note- feel like im going to die, my entire marriage is a pack of F*****G lies!
Appalling is what comes to mind, totally appalling.
I want to crawl in a deep dark hole and just cry hysterically
trying my best to keep it together, im home alone with the kids right now, and have to work a 10 hour shift later.... i see a mental break down in m furture. Unbelievable mixed emotions...
In the past the idea of being unfaithful to my wife came with a deep sense of guilt, now it seems as though I could careless (another short coming perhaps). I suppose this makes me selfish to put my feelings above hers.
To put it bluntly, I think it maybe due to the fact that I view her as my property and not a person.
"true remorse" I’ve known the game just as long as Mike, but being with Lynn I have never really put it to use (besides in East Lansing when Lynn and I were separated, at that time it worked beautifully).,
I did kiss her that night, but there are rules to the game.
Putting such importance on the idea of meeting and ****ing women, it sounds pathetic. But even though I know that, I could careless to do anything about it… at least not at this point.
i think im going to vomit!!!!!! this is the man i married OMFG
Lynn remember that a bunch of what her wrote was done during your EA and PA. Like you are feeling now he was going through emotional hell and little sleep so it's likely that much of his writing is complete crap.
He did fight for you.
You have worked hard for him.
Both of you have hurt one another.
You also both love each other.
You both are hurting.
I don't think it's the end but I do think it's time for both of you to renegotiate a new set of rules and boundaries for the new marriage.
Time for Sean to get a job.
No more nights over at friends or buddies. Dudes got a wife and a troubled marriage. Time to get working on it.
You have got to put your affair behind and accept what was done.
You both have got to make the other person your priority and also not accept being treated any thing less Posted via Mobile Device
I read all the time about couple's reconciling after one spouse had multiple affairs, child's from OM, etc. all the worst things possible.
Sure your marraige has problems but its no where near what some people have gone through.
Both of you need to lay out your problems/boundaries and work on them. Posting/arguing over the net isn't going to fix your marriage, you need more face time with sean.
Why are you guys even still married? I hadn't read this far up to Sean's thread, it was too long, but to think he put you through the hell of constant interrogating all the while he had been cheating and has these views about commitment, well, it significantly reduces whatever sympathy he had to be honest.
Right up to now Sean has held your affair over your head but he's no angel himself and needs to either "sh!t or get off the pot" is concerned.
I don't like using divorce as a tool to wake up a cheating or neglectful spouse but sometimes it takes the filing of divorce to shock the other spouse that the game playing is over. Either way you will know because his actions after the filing will tell you whether he's going to end his crap and commit to the hard work of marital recovery OR he's going to continue his bad behavior unabated. I sincerely hope it is the former.
Lastly. You now know firsthand what it is like to be betrayed in such appalling manner. I say this not to hurt you but for you to experience what cruel behavior feels like, so that you never, ever again inflict on another human being. Use this experience to make yourself into a better person that you and your kids can be proud of.
Why are you guys even still married? I hadn't read this far up to Sean's thread, it was too long, but to think he put you through the hell of constant interrogating all the while he had been cheating and has these views about commitment, well, it significantly reduces whatever sympathy he had to be honest.
Divorce now.
Just to add.I find Lynnie's post sincere and honest.She came on these boards as an outed wayward and accepted her responsibilities where as Sean hasn't always appeared as forthright.I question his motives for letting posters believe for so long that he wasn't as much in the wrong as far as his own infidelities were concerned.They both have done damage to one another and I'm sure kids feel the constant turmoil.Get on with your lives and find some peace.
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