Exactly, whats the point. I've held on long enough.
After her continually getting upset that I hold her accountable for her inappropriate behavior.
After the countless times she gets mad at me for telling her how much her behavior hurts me.
After all the times she throws my addiction in my face, but clamming up when I remind her that every single day, over 1000 of them, I give myself to her to process her resentments however she needs to, but she is too afraid to face them with me and finally move on with our lives together.
After her arguing with me via sms while I was at work all day today, culminating in this dialog:
Can you take some time and try and explain what you want from me, and what you want out of this.....whatever it is I will try to give it to you.
Thats all I've ever wanted to do.
I've told you what I wanted. You don't want it.
Thats when I walked in the house, served her divorce papers, and walked out of the house to go to my AA meeting.