04-19-2012, 11:45 AM
Join Date: Mar 2012
| | Re: Looking thru holiday cards during THE time of the EA
I have been here too. My H gave me his "burner" phone the night of D Day. That's right- he handed it right over to me in the car. All the texts from the OW were still there.
After I looked through it I told him I tossed it because it made me so mad. Not true. I kept it. For about 6 weeks I kept it. I looked at those texts, those times, those words...ugh....so many times. Playing back in my head, where was I this day...what were we doing when she was texting him this, and on and on.
Finally one day (I thought I had them memorized-lol) I said, this is it. I can not look at this every few days. This was after I was really seeing true true remorse and change from him. I knew I had to get rid of that phone. But I wanted to hold onto it, in case OW came fishing-but ended up smashing the crap out of it. Someday's when I get in a funk replaying stupid things I almost wish I had it back to compare notes or whatever--to torture myself!! I know it was right for me to get rid of it.
Pictures of us together during that time, I can still barely look at.