Re: Should I be worried?
Not that it really matters but the initiation night most certainly was a gang bang of sorts, probably involving some nasty, degrading, or kinky stuff.
OP, remind yourself that your wife is now a prostitute. She is a hore, plain and simple. She traded in her marriage and relationship to be banged by a group of people in exchange for travel and an apartment. She sold her dignity for some material goods. I say remind yourself of that because you don't want that type of woman, and there are plenty of woman out there with actual morals who you will meet.
You're obviously in alot of pain so one way I would recommend dealing with it is through physical excercise. For men especially, excercising, moving, keeping busy is a great way to deal with the pain. It also has the added benefit and making you look and feel better.
In time when the pain subsides you might want to read some books like Married Men Sex Life Primer and other books that deal with how to be the kind of man that attracts and keeps hot, faithful women. No you no longer are in a marriage, thats in a rut or otherwise, for whom the book is explicitly intended, but its content is very applicable and useful for any guy at any stage. Her becoming a hore is not your fault. She made her own unscrupulous decisions. However, from the sounds of it you let yourself go a bit and that likely made it more likely for her to look elsewhere. (Reading the book now and it's got such great insight). Anyways, all in due time.
Take care of yourself dude. You're in a world of hurt as many here have been before you. Detach yourself from this woman as much and quickly as you can, hang out and be with your friends and family, confide in them, HAVE FUN with them, it will help get your mind of it as best you can. And take care of yourself. Starting working out alot, join some sport teams, take up a martial arts etc. It will help immensely. And eat better as well. You're shell shocked right now so you need to do these things to be to deal with them, both physically and emotionally. Take charge, don't be passive and let this whole situation continue to affect you. Be your own man and deal with it on your own terms as much as possible.
Come here to vent as well, it's a great support group. Good luck
Last edited by brokenbloke; 04-26-2012 at 10:03 AM.