Hi everybody. I'm 32 and my ex 30. My husband left me 3.5 months ago with a 4 week old and a 22 month old after 7 years together, 3 years married. Ever since then I found out he is with somebody else (an 18 year old). To make long story short I'm having such a hard time with the fact that he's so happy in his new life. He is a professional musician and she... his student. She now opens up for his shows and travels with him. They are inseparable. She splashes her happiness all over fb, twitter, ect. and yes, like an idiot, I check. She posts things obviously directed at me, like that I'm mean and will be alone and a pathetic loser for the rest of my life. My ex only never returns my texts and tells me to leave him the f*ck alone. This is so hurtful. He cheated on me when I was pregnant, left me and now is nothing but hostile. He told me he was miserable with me.... I am so devastated by all of this. It's so hard to move on with my life, when I always imagined us growing old together. I try so hard for my children and they are very happy... I am always polite to him when he comes to see them. I just found a bank statement where he spent $4000 on his cell phone bill in the last 4 months of our relationship. I just can't understand why he doesn't feel any f*cking remorse...! I feel like he's making me out to be a villain as is she. How does that WORK???? Any feedback would be so appreciated. I'm just blindsided by his behavior.
Thanks Almostrecovered, I just did. I know I said that I don't want to be with him, and I wouldn't be able to..... but I miss him so much. That's what will make the 180 and letting him go so difficult. I just wish I had my life back
You must be so hurt by this. I'm so sorry. I don't have much experience about this, but I think you should try to get some counseling. If it were me, I would not be able to go through something like that on my own. Maybe try to spend some time with some friends who will make you feel good. You really need some comfort right now, from maybe family or friends. I think one of the important things is to let yourself feel the way you do. It certainly is part of the process I guess (unfortunately). I wish you all the best and I hope you can find a way to let it go (with time of course) and feel good for yourself. Posted via Mobile Device
Honey hang in their and start working on yourself and take care of your children If you havent already i would consult an atty and get some paperwork filed so you can have some financial needs met, ignore both of them and concentrate on yourself it is a facade maybe start or develop some hobbies like working out or excersing etc also go ahead and file stop messing with your head and heart by checking up on them dont worry the Big ole Karma Bus will arrive shortly take care
Your H sounds like a real narcissist. Do you know anything about that? It might help if you are trying to understand. What he did is beyond awful. Don't worry about his happiness, people like that always get their karma in the end. Its sad really.
I am also a musician. I know all about that world. I married my guitar player. We met on an audition. At some point it will all come crashing down. It always does. Especially in the music world. Your H is probably also a beauty worshipper. Meaning he will have an awful time dealing with getting older. I have seen this many times.
Block hlm on Facebook! This looks like the kind of affair where you are required in it. She is posting for your benefit because she is a teenager! He is in cloud cuckoo land and they are trying to validate there relationship by being really public. It will be tattoos and matching nose rings next!
Separate your finances if you haven't already.
Kill all joint everything.
Do not text, call or be in contact with him unless is directly effects your kids.
Get the Divorce going. He does not get to walk away and play teenager! He has 2 kids and you need to secure your kids future.
I am so sorry you are here. You are going to get some counter-intuitive advice. Be clear with us what you want.
Do you want to Divorce or do you want to reconcile?
At this stage the things you do are the same, so don't worry too much.
God..I can't imagine what kind of an ******* he is to leave such young children behind..
You do realize that there is only a 3% chance of his relationship with the OW working out..relationships that start in infidelity very rarely work out.
Although even if one day he wanted to come back would you want a man who abondoned you and the children back in your life?
Honey, I wish I had the magic words to make everything okay and make you(and me, for that matter) see reality for what it really is. You see your WH for what he USED to be and you're secretly hoping he'll be that person again and come rushing back, begging for forgiveness. Am I right? Because I know I secretly have that same hope.
But the truth is, if I stop thinking emotionally and look at what my WH has done to not only ME, but our children, the past few months, I don't think there's any way to get over that.
There is so much truth to the phrase, "It gets better with time." Here you are, 3.5 months after he left you and you're still surviving! You might feel like crap most days, but you're doing it! You're providing a happy life for your kids and with time, you'll be happy too. I just hope that time comes sooner, rather than later.
Chin up, sister. WE didn't cause this. WE couldn't have done anything differently. WE WILL get over this!
Because he's a gutless puke and she's a stupid teenager who knows no better...later down the road, when he see's that you are happy again (and you will be) the kids will see him for what he really is and maybe wont want anything to do with him and the little teenybopper has left his ass for someone younger...he will be like WTH? my life sucks and its my own fault.
Why do you keep checking on them? the hell with them, do soemthing for YOU, focus on you and the kids..let them live in thier little fantasy world, it will crash and burn...
I try not to check, I really do. It's just when the kids go to bed and all my friends are spending time with their loved ones and I am alone.... I'm just lonely and I guess this is my sad way of feeling connected to him. It's just all such a shock. It's hard to rewire just like that after all this time. I miss him. I wouldn't take him back, I couldn't..... but I miss him so much.