Re: Question for those who have been there!!
Well I can honestly say, I feel better that my feeling are normal! Yes we are better now than we was 6 months ago. But thats what is getting to me I think. If it is better, then why do I want to run? I am having one of them moments right now. That lead me back to this site, I didnt know if my "gut" was trying to tell me somthing again.
I have been thru he** for along time, and yes it is better now. As with ever other BS I just got so much to work thru emotionally on my own. Some days I look at H and I can feel how much love I have for him, then I look at him and think do you really love him still really. Maybe its to much his done and I dont want to do this no more. So that leads to me thinking ok is this one of them "gut" feelings, maybe I should run..
Then it goes back to NO, you and him have been working hard and you both love one another its getting better... So yeah rollercoaster is the right word for it..
My H has no idea I have questioned or R, I never bring it up. WHY? Because I am not sure how I truley feel. And that scares me..
So, I did IC guess I need to go back huh? And you mentioned books what books would you reccomend?
I just dont want the rest of my life so unsure about my own happiness, if I leave will I become happy dunno? If I stay will I become happy dunno? Somedays I am, somedays I am not..
Dang A just destroys the BS, I never thout in my life I would be so utterly confused about my own dang happiness..
Thanks for your help