I will make this short and sweet:
1. You are absolutely crazy.
2. Get tested for STD's at once.
3. You are being used.
4. You will end up hurt: figuratively and literally.
5. You must have a giant sign that says sucker on your forehead. I do hope you do not have children because you are going to put everybody around you at risk. The bottom line is that you are a fool and sadly it does not seem to bother you.
since you are determined to hang yourself, I'll just say this. If the kids are doing roxies then she most likely is too. they don't have to sell them to be screwed up. roxies abusers keep a string of FRIENDS to drift from while trying to have at least ONE thats the home base, " YOU ". Do you know if one of her meds is zanxies ? if so blues are probably in there too. I guess you are just really desparate to have someone, so you won't even listen to your gut. Just think, in a lil while, you will be here asking how to get this woman out of your life. I'm out dude.
I thought crystal meth ruins the enamel of your teeth. So it's easy to see who's hooked on it.
OP, in these later years of my life, given my health and therefore future job prospects, I have decided that I really don't have much to give. And the greatest gift that I can give to others is my enduring independence. As soon as you get involved with someone who is going to take away that independence, well, who's going to take care of you?
Didn't want to start a new thread because of the info in this one would be needed to understand my situation tho some of it is not accurately told in case one of her sons is on here about his woman. Message me and I will explain. ANYWAY...she and I are brokeup now for the 5th time in a year,and there were 3 other times she was going to leave but I talked her out of it.
Here is the reason.....and please, in your understanding and comments...use this new info for it is what has made me crazy.
This woman...will not,can not,so she tells me, control her eyes. Everywhere we go,even in church,she stares at men excessivly. She knows this hurts me but tho I see her do this all this time,and many times when she gets the guys to look back,she will smile. NOW. I know some on here think that and flirting is ok. But I am old school and believe in total committment. I find it wrong, I don't do it, and sne knows it hurts me but she will not stop. She actually tells me that she is not aware that she is gaulking and smiling at men. She tries to make me think that I am crazy and seeing things but I know what I observe, She also says that it was ok with her deceased husband and the guy she dated before me. And she says that it's ok if I want to look and gaulk at women as long as I wont hook up with one. Sounds sick to me. Problem is, I am very much in love with her but this has drove me insane and she says that she is innocent tho she admits to being man crazy.
I thought the "bad boy" definition was gender specific and was only true when the "bad" pointed to a "male".
Stop.
And keep in mind,
Never trust a junkie. Drug dealer, user or whatever.
True. Because the guy she dated before me had been a member of the Mongouls 1% outlaw bc and had a conviction of rape that is on the net. Her sons (not daughters) have police records and are druggies and cheat on their wives.
I think she may have been trying to escape that world but now realises that she cant and wants that sub-culture lowlife more than a good and decent life.
That thought has ran through my mind a thousand times....yes!
But,if she is faking and using me then hollywood has no better actors than this woman,seriously. She calls several times a day,says she loves,can't live without me and talks of living with me forever. I have no money or property for her to be after. If she is faking then I have no clue what she is after from me.
Do you have any income at all?
Are you a stable bill paying responsible person?
That's more than enough if the woman is low enough.
True. Because the guy she dated before me had been a member of the Mongouls 1% outlaw bc and had a conviction of rape that is on the net. Her sons (not daughters) have police records and are druggies and cheat on their wives.
I think she may have been trying to escape that world but now realises that she cant and wants that sub-culture lowlife more than a good and decent life.
The above is all you need to know, there are so many skeletons in her closet she would need a shipping container to put them in,you don't even know half of them and unfortunately it may be to late once you do know.
You don't see it because you don't want to, trying to explain it all away. Listen to your gut, its screaming you what need to know "Get away and stay away".
I dont know why many men dont get the meaning of the word "love" correctly.
Evey-one is in love, they dont mind whether their love is banging the entire state team or whether they sell heroin or whether they do prostitution or whether they are sick and broken or whether they are going to take him to the road or whether they are going to send him to jail for being a participant in crime, they are in love.
Bart stop trying to rationalize this and give stories about her kids.. Why you think this or that.. WHO CARES ABOUT THEM ? She sure didn't...
Bart do you have kids ?? I get the impression you don't. If you did you would completely understand kids get what they get from their parents..
My dad left when I was 12, never came back.. I was a latch key kids.. Mom worked 6 days a week, 12 hours a day. I worked 2 jobs to help keep our bills paid and our home my mom got in the divorce.
BUT
My mom still had morals and instilled them in me and raised me what I think is right and correct.
I did my wrong things growing up, but I KNEW They were wrong.. There comes a time ( I would say at the age of 16, for me ) that you clearly know WTF your doing and only have yourself to blame when you do something wrong..
We were piss a$$ broke.. I went from well off to broke over night. Trust me its harder to start off good and go backwards then the other way around. Definitely more of shell shock.
Nonetheless YOU need professional help. You sound like me the first weeks of my divorce posting here..
You are extremely codepenant.
Sadly reading your story I see myself the first few weeks after my wife left me. I'm literally getting emotional relating to your feelings and desperation trying to hold on some how and trying to make up any story to make this all seem rational and doable.
Please seek help. I honestly and truly feel you will go down another rabbit hole that you will never, ever be able to get out of this time..
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