The thoughts of my wife's affair have been driving me crazy. I seem to be obsessed with replaying the sexual act over and over again in my head.
Do you think it would be more hurtful (to me) if I asked her specific questions about the sex? I want to know how big he was. If she did/got oral? Did he use a condom? Did he make her cum?
I don't know If I just want to hurt even more but I just want some facts with the imagery that I'm created in my head.
Part of me thinks it's a bad idea but I'm consumed by it? As sick as it may sound, I for whatever reason was slightly turned on and then immediately disgusted when I think about the betrayal.
Do you think it would be more hurtful (to me) if I asked her specific questions about the sex? I want to know how big he was. If she did/got oral? Did he use a condom? Did he make her cum?
I don't know If I just want to hurt even more but I just want some facts with the imagery that I'm created in my head.
Part of me thinks it's a bad idea but I'm consumed by it? As sick as it may sound, I for whatever reason was slightly turned on and then immediately disgusted when I think about the betrayal.