Married 20 years, separated three months
I have been posting in Going Through Divorce or Separation for about three months, but I finally decided that I guess I need to post here as well for some support.
I have been married for 20 years to my high school sweetheart. We have one child together. He cheated on me approximately 10 years ago, we went through counseling, and he swore that he would never hurt me in that way again. Surprise, he did.
He apparently began either an EA or PA with someone who works for him about 9 months ago. He started to distance himself from me, telling me that he wasn't sure he ever loved me, etc. I found a half used carton of lubricant in his drawer as well as other emails, notes, etc. that indicated that he was being unfaithful. He had explanations for all of it and denies it to this day.
We have been separated for three months and he just has moved on and wants nothing to do with me. He only texts or emails something to do with our son and never asks anything at all about me or makes any contact other than about our child. It's like a nightmare. I have lost my best friend as well as my husband.
I am trying to do the 180 as best I can. I just have so many good memories that I am trying to push aside because I know things are different now. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through.