Another kick to the gut
Finally accessing my anger. All this while I thought there was hope for us to repair our marriage. He left me, gave me ILYBINILWY, found out on Monday he was cheating on me. He called and admitted. Did not apologise to me although he was sorry I found out the way I did, I suppose that is code for I'm sorry you found out.
Anyway, yesterday I noticed he was on Facebook. thought maybe he was FB stalking. Went on today and he has removed his married and put in a relationship, and has added his posOW as a friend. Oh and her birthdays the same as his, how adorable is that??
Called my SIL who has been my rock, and after crying down the phone, finally tuned into my anger. I've gone on his page, wrote : good luck with your relationship, I hope it's everything you wanted. I can see you don't want to work on our marriage so I will stop bothering you now and will be blocking you now.
I also told SIL not to tell him that I'm sad or upset but that I'm moving on and happy. I refuse to let him see me upset. Omg I am such a fool. Because I thought he was going through a MLC/breakdown I've withheld my anger and supported his pathetic ass. Oh I am so effin done now. I'm going to hold my head high even if he isn't. What a nasty piece of sh&t. I don't know why he did it unless to wind me up and kick me in the gut one more time for good measure.