Wife cheated with my best friend with me sleeping in the next room
A few days ago my wife confessed to me that she had a sexual encounter with my best friend while on a trip. She told me that they kissed and touched for over 2 hours in the next room. She claims that he didn't penetrate her with his penis, but he did use the finger, I don't know if its true or not, and frankly I don't think it matters.
A little background. I have never been over jealous, I do believe in a more open relationship but this seems like betrayal. I feel like a total idiot.
A bit more background. I have cheated on my wife with a prostitute and she found out, that was about a year before the incident with my best friend. I understand that I hurt her and that she wants to get even with me, in fact I have never been too jealous and wouldn't care that much if it was a one night stand with a stranger. But what tore me apart was way she/they did it. I feel completely betrayed and used.
I want to get over this, but I don't know if I can trust her again. I think this is the worst thing that she could ever do to me.
I feel like I lost both, my wife and my best friend.