So...in all these solid years of therapy, what have you done to realize and accept and LIVE that you're a great, loveable, valuable person? Cos I'm still not hearing it.
Right now turnera, I have no clue.. I'm like a drug addict going through withdrawal. I hate hear and love her. I wish things could have been different.
I will never call her or reach out to her.. But it is killing me.
She was toxic..
She did triangulation- Basically brought other people into the relationship to cause issues. .EG other men to cause insecurity.. Other friends to cause other issues.
Like my Ex wife, she will only see it down the road..
When she couldn't control me anymore she turned people against me.
I spoke with the therapist about an article I seen and read 20 Diversion Tactics Highly Manipulative Narcissists, Sociopaths And Psychopaths Use To Silence You | Thought Catalog
She did many of these things, I just didn't see it..
His answer was I couldn't tell you.. This was one thing you had to learn for yourself. If I told you it would have went in one ear and out another.. You wouldn't believe it if I told you.
I truly understand what a drug addict deals with. You want the drug, you know the drug will be bad but you still want it. It is rough..
The therapist concern is why it took me 3 years. Why kept trying.. Why couldn't I let it go earlier.. That is something he wants to go over with me and maybe teach me.
Just fvcking kills me.. I have a good life and would to share with someone. I don't need a doctor or a lawyer.. Just a woman who would appreciate me and not take advantage of me.
For all my street skills they just do not relate into any form of relationship skills.
I'm just down and out atm..
I am mourning and I get it.. So I cry. But I just feel I cried enough for a life time with my ex wife..
I've been sad enough for a life time already..