Re: Feeling paralyzed
The hardest part of any journey is crossing the threshhold.
That is, once you take one step, the rest are easier.
Probably it's that you feel a lack of inertia is because of fear of having this happen all over again, the first step in any direction is way too big for you. You are afraid of the ripple effect, how any little thing you do will change the entire future. But in doing nothing, you are also doing something. Once you realize this, you can realize that you might as well do something you enjoy. You don't know, you could watch a movie and have it mean something to you. Last evening I started watching "The Penitent Man," I didn't know much about it, I finished it this morning. It meant a lot to me, even though it was poorly done, in terms of the acting. Also yesterday and the day before I watched "Sleepwalk with Me" and yesterday I also watched a video about the effects of the lack of REM sleep, which can be devastating, even cause death. Of course it causes deranged states of mind. Sleep is very important.
Anyway, doing nothing is doing something. As you stay in bed, the rest of the world is changing. When you do choose to interact with the world again, it will be different. Maybe instinctively, you are waiting for the right moment to rejoin, but the point is, you can't know what exactly is the optimum moment to rejoin and participate. At some point, you have to pinch hit and just re-enter the flow, and accept that you are a part of the greater whole, and just get over it, not get over the depression, but just get over the thought that you have any control over whether you participate in the world, or not. You can run but you can't hide. The universe is still aware of exactly where you are, hiding under the covers or not.