marshsc

I think this will be the hardest christmas of my life. I hurt. Keep job hunting. Packed up the stuff I have to boxes. I am ready to leave at anytime. I so want to leave but have to have a job before I leave 26 years at this job. Oh well. **** it all really. I need a drink.
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marshsc

Go back to la and live in a motel 4 days even though wife wants to stay at house till june. This all is so ****ed.
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marshsc

Go back to la and live in a motel 4 days even though wife wants to stay at house till june. This all is so ******.
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marshsc

Someone please shoot me. I would rather be in truck home than this room. Hate this life.
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marshsc

All day alone. Can't live like thi
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marshsc

Sat and sunday I sit all day. I go to work to put in jobs and try to figure how I am going to sleep at night.wife. Soon to be x is not talking much at all and wants the div. Just very sad and alone. Only look forward to day I drive back home.
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marshsc

I have a possible option for work back home. I want out of here. I hope some day six months from now my wife will still be my wife. I am very depressed here. Snowing and just so far away and lost my best friend for life by coming here. Truck was broke into again. I hate this place. Will be driving to az monday night to see daughter and then two days later to cali and then back to utah for the last time
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marshsc

Hi. I left utah. Going to az to see daugter. Then to cali. Live in truck. I don't think I will go back to utah
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marshsc

Well what has life done. Regrouping I'don't get it but I will make it. I sit here farther away than I was andd there is no end in sight. I hurt daily. Close to broke again and on my way back to cali. This time I do not know that I will return to UTAH. I asked my boss for a layoff so that I can collect severance pay and look for work. I have had 4-5 interview options and could not take any of them because of me being so far away. I hate it in UTAH, job or no job I hate UTAH Truck ripped off twice. Lost home, lost Marriage, lost kids, room I had there was ripped off for all the food when I left and I just cant live like this anymore. I am drinking daily to hide all the pain. Christmas was sleeping in truck on the way back to home. I have never had a worse year or 5 months in my life and I thought that going there was going to improve my life. It only made it worse 10fold and no end in sight. Everyone says for me to buck up. Well I have and have tried by renting a room in UTAH, cold and lonely and a shared bath and kitchen and living like a bum making good money because I have to drive back to cali once a month because of probation issues. I LOVE MY WIFE, FORK!!!!!!! God I ask you why has all this taken place. I have tried over and over to do the best that I can by my kids and my wife. My brakes are out on the truck now far away and tires are low and I am low on funds. I just wish I would be allowed to go home. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!

marshsc

I am here in cali. Got a storage. Gym membership to shower. Truck reg is due 500 and wife is demanding money I don't have. Just got a bill collector taking me to court on the 12th and I was supposed to go back to UTAh on the 3rd. So I am going out on disability again. But this time its till I find a new job.
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marshsc

Forgot. I am not drinking anymore. A few days now. I have to recover or I am going to die like this
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marshsc

I need advice. I will die in utah driving back and forth. In cali now. Wife did not pay house payment for dec. I called her lawyer since she is in house. Her mom just called and said" I just thought u should know the god damn house payment was paid and I hope u get drowned in a snowbank " and hung up
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swedish

Do you have a lawyer? It really sounds like you are just going in circles with everything but I am glad to hear you stopped drinking...hang in there...I hope 2011 brings you stability, a new job, a new start so you can begin to look forward again.

And remember, her mom is only hearing her side of the story so take it with a grain of salt, ok?

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marshsc

Thank u. I was just told they oked the modification on the house and payment is 2997. And the want one payment up front. I told her to sale the seadoo but she refuses eveything now. I could sale my truck to make the two payments needed fast and keep the house. But that would mean me go on disability and get room mates back in and find new jobs here fast.
I could do it and save my house. But I know she will not go for anything now as she won't talk. I have a court date set for her on the 12th to address this same issue. I am sure all will be lost when there is a chance to save. All I can do is pray
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Brewster 59

I would be careful before giving your X money or giving her permission to sell items. It may not help your wifes disposition and you may just be out the money.

Is the house upside down? if so it may be best to walk away, has the soon to be X ran up credit debt? if so it may be best to be unemployed during the divorce.

If your X has already filed for divorce and has an attourney the odds of working anything out are slim and the divorce is alll about money and property division and if she has an attourney, if their is anyway you can get one you should do so or you risk getting really screwed.

Do not get suckered by the lets still be friends crap, or think things will be better if you are nice. Be true to yourself, people doing divorce amicalbly go through mediation or diy, once an attourney is involved it is an adversarial situation.