12-25-2010, 09:13 PM
Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: California\UTAH\ FORK UTAH
| | Re: BROKE LEFT JOB LOVE WIFE SAW HERE 1st TIMe in a month TOTAL LOSS and AT END
Well what has life done. Regrouping I'don't get it but I will make it. I sit here farther away than I was andd there is no end in sight. I hurt daily. Close to broke again and on my way back to cali. This time I do not know that I will return to UTAH. I asked my boss for a layoff so that I can collect severance pay and look for work. I have had 4-5 interview options and could not take any of them because of me being so far away. I hate it in UTAH, job or no job I hate UTAH Truck ripped off twice. Lost home, lost Marriage, lost kids, room I had there was ripped off for all the food when I left and I just cant live like this anymore. I am drinking daily to hide all the pain. Christmas was sleeping in truck on the way back to home. I have never had a worse year or 5 months in my life and I thought that going there was going to improve my life. It only made it worse 10fold and no end in sight. Everyone says for me to buck up. Well I have and have tried by renting a room in UTAH, cold and lonely and a shared bath and kitchen and living like a bum making good money because I have to drive back to cali once a month because of probation issues. I LOVE MY WIFE, FORK!!!!!!! God I ask you why has all this taken place. I have tried over and over to do the best that I can by my kids and my wife. My brakes are out on the truck now far away and tires are low and I am low on funds. I just wish I would be allowed to go home. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!
Last edited by marshsc; 12-26-2010 at 09:26 AM.