Re: Losing a parent.............
Karole and to all who have posted on this thread, my deepest and most sincere sympathies to everyone who has lost someone. I know many people say the only thing more difficult than losing a parent is losing a child. Growing up we view our parents as these larger than life, ever resilient, super heroes. We think we will have them forever. I will never forget being in school and hearing that one of my classmates dad's passed away suddenly in a car accident and I could not fathom the pain she felt. I could only imagine what she was going through, and her family.
We lost my grandfather over 2 years ago, and he practically raised my sister and I. He was the toughest man I have ever met, but also the most kind and loving to his family. He was in the Marine corps in WW2 , to this day I can't believe he is gone.
My mom just was diagnosed with a rare form of breast cancer ( triple negative). She starts chemotherapy this week and she is terrified of it, she does not do well with medications of any kind. She is 63 years old, she has two young grandsons who adore her ( my sisters 2 year old and 4 year old). I can't believe this is happening to our family. I know how it felt to lose my grandfather and it did hurt , but the concept of losing my mother terrifies me. She is the closest person I have in my life and really in terms of family, all I really have. I am trying to reconnect with my sister, but she has her own family now, perhaps my mother being terminally ill might bring my sister and I closer together. I feel this intense array of emotions right now and I am feeling very much alone with coping with this.