Re: How 3 deaths affected me
I am sorry. Grief is very real physically. So much so it feels like it will kill us, only it doesn't. Sometimes I feel I've encountered people who seem to be envious of intense grief, I think it's because they're curious as to how you can love someone so much that it makes you this way.
I posted here about a grief situation. I struggle with it every day, if anyone shows me so much as a little kindness I start to lose it.
I'll go to see my guy this evening. I hope I don't end up crying like last time which was Sunday. 6 weeks in the hsopital, I didn't cry, except when his sister was abusive to me and the first day I really lost it big time (well, it was the middle of the night) but when he got to rehab, I started in on it.
There is really no escape, I have accepted I will go about my life and go on with it, and that I will hurt. I bought Boost again for the times when I can't swallow food.