I'm sorry for your loss friend. When I was 8 years old my dad committed suicide and I feel the sting, both in spring when it happened, in winter on his birthday, and in autumn when my mom divorced him since he almost took the rest of us with his rifle after serving in the Marines. Best of luck moving on. Time doesn't heal all wounds but all wounds can heal in time.
My heart goes out to you, and the other commenters who lost loved ones. I lost a best friend to an accident some years ago and that put me into depression for a couple of years. Its very difficult to lose someone and just unthinkable to lose one's own child like you did. Hugs
I am so sorry for your loss. I'm a mom and I can't even imagine how insanely painful this must be for you. I don't know what the right thing to say in this situation is.... whether your child is a baby or an adult-it's your baby. Stay strong mama. Hugs.