Re: not coping
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this, I can totally relate. My husband was the only one that I have been with and I have known him for 12 years and we have been married for 10. My husband disconnected from me and told me that he would always love me and care for me but that he wasn't in love with me anymore. The hardest words I have ever heard in my life. My husband also told me that he would try to try because he stated that he wasn't sure he could go through my bouts with depression anymore that I had hurt him so badly. What it came down to was excuses and him blaming me for everything even though he was the one doing things he was not supposed to be doing while I took care of our son. I am still having trouble going through this and some days it doesn't feel like you will, but you have to remember that you cannot control what the other person does. This is something that will drive you crazy, but you have to accept it. Try to take care of yourself as best as you can, try to eat and sleep when you can. I know it is not easy. I have lost 40 pounds so far while going through this but I know I have to get through this for my 1 year old son because he can't take care of himself. Find someone that you can talk to whether it is a counselor, family member or friend. This is something you cannot and should not have to go through on your own. I've had to ask a lot of different people for help because I know I can't do it on my own and they all have told me to ask for help because they want to see me heal and move forward with my life. Keep your head up and I hope this helps!