Should I feel bad/guilty?
Since seperation I've noticed that I'm dealing with this alot better than my STBX, however, her playing "emotional catch-up" (brilliant term to coin it, thanks btw), has made feel a bit guilty about all this.
Is this guilt healthy? Or should I block it out? It took me a while to deal with the shock at first, as well as changing my routine since now I have an empty household. I'm heading for a drive soon, pick up the new Hitman game to get my mind off things. I cope by trying to make myself smile again, letting nothing keep me down, but at the same time with how the STBX is acting, I almost feel guilty about living life and trying to keep myself off depression.
I am no longer an alcoholic and I guess I'm now addicted to having a clear head to work through things, but I know that if my STBX sees me smiling then it's just going to make her feel more like sh-t, and I don't want that. So... should I feel guilty?
This is my coping mechanism, does this make me heartless?