I had a miscarriage in August 2011. I found out at 6 weeks & then a week after I was bleeding but still there was a heartbeat. My husband told me we have a fighter & oh how I wish he/she was here today. I ended up losing the baby shortly after.
I was 22 and didn't want kids yet but hearing that heartbeat made me so happy & I never wanted something more.
I love kids & I'm so happy around them. I have a 6 yr old Step Daughter and 1 1/2 year old niece & I love those girls with all my heart. I do want my own though, I want to be pregnant, I want to give birth to a healthy baby & I want to hear my child call me MOMMY!!!
After going through that my husband and I tried to have a baby until the end of 2012 & it just didn't happen. I'm on birth control now bc I have a new job & work long hours. Its a new company so we're working hard to make it big!
I'm conflicted though bc I want a child with my husband but its hard to keep trying with no results. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to be one of those women who can't have kids.
I still cry sometimes about my miscarriage and I don't think I can ever get over it. Some may feel it was a short time but all I did was dream about how they would look, how much I couldn't wait to just hold my baby. I'm crying now thinking about it.
Anyway, my dilemma is should I stay on birth control? & not think about trying just keep living, having unprotected sex with my husband & what happens, happen?
& if anyone has dealt with this lost, how have you overcome it?