Re: Son passed away, need help dealing with this
DMM, I can't imagine how drained, sad, hurt, lonely, angry.etc... you must feel, i wish i could give you hugs to you and your family. The thing about death is that its something that will never go away, the minute we are born we are dying. It doesn't matter if you were awake or in other room, it may have even been a different day that it happened, we just have no control over when our time is up. You will beat yourself up over the what if's, but it wasn't for you to decide, it wasn't anyone's choice. It's ok to hurt, it's ok to cry, it's ok to be angry, that IS normal, there is no time limit on when it SHOULD stop, just take it one day at a time, maybe even 5 minutes at a time. Please go talk to someone, it's ok to lean on others!! My heart goes out to you and your family, I don't know if you believe in God or not, but I will pray for you and hope you feel his love wrap around you.