Re: reconnect or separation
OGNW, I feel so badly for you. I went thru the exact same thing. One MC session. It ended with the counselor telling us she could help us if both of us were willing. I said I would do anything. She said it was a waste of time. And that was that.
As I said before you may not hear what you want to hear but you will probably hear what you need to hear. She has made your choice clear by making her choice.
All I can say is, hang in there. I wish I could be telling you something different, but you are in for the roller coaster ride of your life over the next few months. Try to stay focused on the future. Work on your self. Find some real friends that you can talk to. Especially some that have been through it. Listen to them. A lot of what they will tell you, you won't truly be able to understand. But as the twine ball untangles you will begin to see the truth.
Also, try not to placate your pain with booze or drugs (illegal or prescription). Try to avoid the easy way out of facing your problems and ultimately your self.
Hang in there! If you ever want to talk - send me a PM.
At the center of every moMEnt of my life is ME!