Re: Trip Away
It's 20 students and four teachers including her. Another woman she's not close to and two males from her department she's also not particularly close to. I've got 98% confidence that this doesn't have anything to do with an affair or the desire for stimulating male companionship. There's a part of me that wishes it did have to do with that - at least then I'd have some kind of answer and point from which to work. Stupid wish, I know.
And we do have more time off than others, no doubt. I guess the difference between the two of us (well, one of many, I guess) is that I want the memories, the time, the effort *with the kids* as much as possible for as long as we have them. Tours will always be there, literally decades of them after the kids leave home. The kids will be at this age and stage for only a few more years, and it's going fast. So yes, other teachers do go on these trips. I think it's a mistake, though, for those with kids at this age. As for the kids over-reacting, I think they were just expressing how they felt. Others are expressing the same kind of thing. My wife and I were at a party this past weekend and a friend of ours who knows about the jungle trip was chatting with us. "So, what are you doing while she ditches the family?" she said to me. Our friend laughed and said she was joking. I laughed. My wife didn't laugh.
Am I trying to hurt her? I've already said that I don't think that's my motivation, but that I'd be lacking a certain amount of introspection if I discounted that that may well be at least a portion of the equation. Not proud of it, but I believe in candor here. My halo's a little crooked.
As for waiting for her or being worried about filling time, I'm looking to provide my kids (and yeah, myself as well) with as exciting, memorable, awesome, and special time as possible in a kind of equivalence for all of us. Doing more of what we routinely do (games, movies, hiking, etc.) doesn't fill that bill.
I appreciate all the comments, both those that support me and those that challenge me. For some reason this is tough for me and being able to talk about it helps. I have a close group of friends I talk to, but there's something freeing about this kind of venue, so thanks.