She asked for honesty. She is a HUGE contributor. Her stye is well known and unique. I recall her participating in my threads and I appreciate that despite the annoying style. Just because I dislike an abundance of colors and artwork in posts and ad nauseum "Im so happy" claims which I believe are bogus doesn't mean she doesn't deserve a truthful response that she asked for. I don't doubt her sincere interest in the truth.
I DO want honestly, I can handle it.. really.. I realize there are people here who , after reading some of my posts may feel (and very strongly)...if she is so happy, WTF is she still doing here?? Of course that exists. If the majority felt this way, I would not feel welcome and move on, this I am sure.
Am I trying to fill a void in my life, some empty hole as you called it.... I am going to say forums have always been a hobby of mine...ever since I got the net.. some 16 yrs ago ....I was on a variety of them...Parenting, a C-section forum, christian, health forums, photography/ camera ... if I had a question about anything - I looked up a forum!... and I enjoy writing...
Mid Life offered me a flood of "OMG what is happening to me!"....it was an intense time for me & causing me to fight with my H.... having some melt downs...so I searched out a forum specifically where I could talk about this -if others could relate.. gain some insight... I learned and grew here through posting...others challenged me..I don't mind the hard stuff...I can separate the "wheat from the chaff" as they say...... Yes, it brought us closer than we've ever been.... If I didn't land here...I might have ended up on Red TUBE.... not so good. I think I made the better choice..
I needed to write out my feelings & sort through them...with my H.... I needed to do something with the excess intensity that was raging...this forum sucked me in...WHY...the posters were amazing...articulate...
I've asked myself many a times... should I play down how I feel just so others will not want to throw up... but wait... many other wives speak highly of their husbands , they are thankful too... Mrs John Adams comes to mind.. never a bad word.. Praise always... she married a wonderful man...so why shouldn't I, if I feel it so strongly.
I got this: It also seems to me you have asked about how you are perceived or why you are perceived certain way and have mentioned others don't agree with your views before. I don't think disagreement is odd pretty much anywhere.
I don't know any forum, watering hole or church choir where there is much consensus. It seems each side of most mainstream issues always has a healthy share of supporters that think its gospel and opponents that think it's nuts
I guess my insecurities show when I speak like that... which I need to stop.
I try to accept others for their differences so it bothers me when I feel I am not... I am a sensitive woman after all & maybe it is a blight on my character.... This is one area my H has over me in spades, he could literally give a rats a$$ if people like him.. Me.. I want to push it away...but I can't deny it bugs me.. it's very stupid I realize this... I'm getting better. Posts like yours help!
I'm a work in progress like everyone else.
You are wrong about me expecting everyone to think the same though... all I wanted from a worthy forum is a place where a variety of people from all walks of life, beliefs, lifestyles , come together..allowed to speak and share...so we can all learn from each other.