Can't stop lying
I have been married to my wife for 4 years now, and I am putting the relationship on a downward spiral. In the past year, due to me being dishonest, I have racked up debt and broken her trust. After the fallout of her finding out, she wanted me to go to counseling, which I for a bit, but stopped even though I told her that I was still going. Now she has caught me in this lie, and I feel like I am just spinning out of control. I have never been unfaithful to her by cheating on her, but I still feel that my lies are emotionally cheating. I am at my wits end, and I don't really know how to stop/what to do to even try.