I got married 28 years ago with a dream to have a happy family of four kids two boys and two girls live as family and grow old together
I have Four kids as i wanted they are wonderful kids
I have experienced AND MY KIDS TOO all forms off emotional abuse including verbal abuse
In my country the man has more rights and if i leave marriage he can take my kids
Let me tell you something you can also read it in any site about abuse
"Domestic violence and abuse are used for one purpose and one purpose only: to gain and maintain total control over you. An abuser doesn’t “play fair.” Abusers use fear, guilt, shame, and intimidation to wear you down and keep you under his or her thumb. Your abuser may also threaten you, hurt you, or hurt those around you." Domestic Violence and Abuse: Signs of Abuse and Abusive Relationships
I will leave you some information from this site
"Understanding emotional abuse
The aim of emotional abuse is to chip away at your feelings of self-worth and independence. If you’re the victim of emotional abuse, you may feel that there is no way out of the relationship or that without your abusive partner you have nothing.
Emotional abuse includes verbal abuse such as yelling, name-calling, blaming, and shaming. Isolation, intimidation, and controlling behavior also fall under emotional abuse. Additionally, abusers who use emotional or psychological abuse often throw in threats of physical violence or other repercussions if you don’t do what they want.
You may think that physical abuse is far worse than emotional abuse, since physical violence can send you to the hospital and leave you with scars. But, the scars of emotional abuse are very real, and they run deep. In fact, emotional abuse can be just as damaging as physical abuse—sometimes even more so"
If you want to read more go ahead and visit it and you can't picture how many books i have read and how many sites i have visited and as much as i know i should leave as much as i try hard to do more things to help fix the marriage that i kept it for 28 years i can't handle anymore to live like that I am now with full knowledge about the kind of life i was living and my kids too i don't want to go in mire details it will take pages but what i want to share with you is i am still undecided to leave i have now all the rights and even i have the power now i still want my dream to stay as family and find a way to help him to change which i don't believe it will happen and i am the abused person who is still paying the consequences of not being able to take this decision some of my story i already post it and i feel what you are feeling
Hopefully you found answers and you are able to decide what is the right to be done for you and your child
One more think i use to think like you that i won't find better than him in life and this one of the abuse result losing confidence self esteem self worthiness........
And as turnera advice me it applies for you too if you decided to leave you need to find psychologist to help you not to fall in another abusive relationship in the future
I am ready to share more about my experience with you if you feel you need that