engaged but dont want to get married
I've been engaged for a few months now, but am not sure if i want to get married. i thought this was exactly what i wanted, but im not sure anymore. i've been with my fiance for over 2 years and have been living together for more than 1 1/2 years. i used to have so much fun with him and now i feel like since we got engaged i just feel stuck. i dont feel that excitment i used to when i see him. i dont even feel anything when we kiss. i just get annoyed and want to be left alone. i dont know if its because im super stressed at work or because we seem so much busier than we used to be and dont have enough time for each other. Right now we have already made some plans for the wedding which isn't until next year, but we have put some deposits down and i would feel like im wasting my parents money if i cancel it. I know the weddings not for a while, but i dont know what to do. i feel like everytime him and i have a conversation it ends in a fight. i want to be happy with him because hes a good guy, but i just dont know if hes the one for me. Could I just be emotional and stressed and be taking it out on him? I know he knows things are different because he says things about it. He wants things to be the way they used to be but i dont know if there is anything there. I have had a few other long time relationships that ended after about a year or two and i feel like thats where this one is at. I dont know if i can spend the rest of my life with him and be happy. my biggest fear is divorce and i dont want to put him through one either.. Any advise on how you know if hes the one or if its not worth trying?