ok here is the thing. when i was only 13 and i liked this guy that is 10 years older than me. well my parents would not go for that so i didnt even try to date him. then a couple years later is when i started dating my husband, we have been married for seven years now. me and my husband started having some problems a couple years ago. he is a great guy but i just dont know if my love for him is as strong as it once was. i also see alot of his dad and grandfather in him. which is not to good because they are not very loving to their wifes. what i mean by this is when their wifes cook they dont appreciate it, they put it down. and they also put them down alot about everything they do. they look at the bad in their wifes and hardly ever the good. i never see them hug, kiss or even hold hands. they are always grumpy. now my husband can be caring but he is more like them all the time. i dont want to grow old with someone who will not appreciate me and the things i do for them and be in a bad mood all the time. i have talked to my husband about this and he said he will not be like them but he doesnt see what he does and dont want to open his eyes to it.
well the first of last year the guy that i liked when i was 13 kinda came back in the picture. this is after i started having marriage problems. we did get into contact with one another but not physical just talking on the phone. he was someone good to talk to. i had no one else to really talk to about my problems. well i decided that it was best for me not to talk to him anymore because i felt it was unfair to my husband, and i did tell my husband about it.
ever since i talked to the guy i have really strong feelings for him. but i dont want to leave my husband at the same time. i dont want to hurt my husband. if i was to go then it would upset A LOT of people. but i am not %100 happy with everything. we do have a little girl and that is another thing that keeps me with my husband because i dont know what i would do if i did not see her everyday.
i guess i have went on and on but i dont know what i need to do. i have prayed to the Lord and i feel he was leading me were i needed to go but at the same time it didnt feel right. so i dont know what to do. can someone please help me out.
dont know what to do.....
