09-16-2010, 07:35 PM
Join Date: Jul 2010
| | Issues, Issues, Issues.
I've posted a couple times on here but I don't know if I got the answers that really helped me any. To make a long story short, I'm recently married (less then 6-months) and have been feeling very strange. Before we got married I got these same feelings but never though much of them and went on with the wedding. It seems like every time I see a "hot" girl all I think about is wanted to get to know them (physically and emotionally, i won't lie) and thinking to myself that I wish I was single and could go and be with other girls. I am a 21 year old that is married so I understand I married young but I feel like I no longer even want to try to make our marriage keep going.
I keep getting the weird feeling of thinking about how good it'd be to be free from this **** and just let loose and do my own for awhile. To be a little more detail oriented, me and the wife are around each other almost every single day and I get my alone time by going for a run, and she never wants to go anywhere and actually sleeps (takes a long nap) after work then just remains on the couch the rest of the night. I have a lot going on right now with my mom which has an illness that my family is trying to cope with and assist her in the best way but i have to leave and go visit her and help her almost every day or every other day. My wife has been complaining to me that I'm always gone (which I am not, I leave for about 2-3 hours each occasion.) and saying that she feels lonely. It's starting to bother me to where I look forward to being gone each time then when she starts texting me things about being lonely I just get pissed and don't care.
I'm just not sure if this means that I truly have fallen out of love with her or what? We have sex about once every week and even with that, I'd rather masturbate then do it. I feel like I may not be that attracted to her either. Also, to be completely honest, I probably would cheat on her if the opportunity presented itself, and I'm not trying to be an ******* or sound inconsiderate but I'm being honest and I understand it's not right.