Re: can you help me save my marriage
Wow, you are completely consumed, mentally, physically and emotionally by this in a negative way... Your posts are very desparate like, which I can tell is how you feel... First off, you need to take a moment to remove yourself from the situation... Looking from the outside in, this is a women that is not in a state that most would be fighting, scratching and clawing to get back with...
Being that you are so desparate to be with her, I hope you are not pushing your feelings about this onto your children when you are with them, for they do not need to be put in the middle.
You videotaped her during her outburst? And then played it to others for proof? But that was not your intention? Why would you videotape her in the first place. That is not something I would want to ever see again, if it was someone I loved, nor others.
I think you really need to find yourself again... I think your "soul" is completely overcast by your egoself. You are so weak now... Get out of this "drama" while you're not living there! You do not have any confidence or strenght within yourself now, nor did you when you were with her because she was looking for it and ran to her parents for it...
This is very important: If you really want your relationship to work, you must find "true" confidence within yourself... You need to go and make a life for yourself where you don't need other's to help you support it... You speak of your little "single wide" that your living in, from your quarter million, in the negative. This is a home that you are supporting all by yourself with no help from anyone... I believe that you like the "high rolling" lifestyle that her parents helped to provide you with... Stop living so materialistically... Be proud of what you are now doing on your own, for there are many in worse boats than you!!! Be proud of EVERYTHING you do!!!
If you can bring your focus back into you, you will see that the world is a HUGE and MAGNIFICENT place where there are no boundaries or limitations! I hope you do find yourself, and might I add, if you do, don't be surprised if you decide to go a different route!