I have to defend myself here, I enjoy my job a lot, I enjoy my job even more by thinking like this!
I guess we might be thinking something different. I used to seek approval of others, I found this to be a very silly thing for me to do. Now I just focus on my teaching and make sure that my students learn well and they are happy. I don't care about how other teachers think of me. In fact, I do a better job, they respect me even more( or I just don't care what they think of me any more, I am nice to them, I smile at them when I see them, I don't care what they say about me behind my back since I don't tell them anything about me). Since I know my money comes from this job, and I need that money, I try harder working, because I don't want to lose my job. I teach 22 hours a week, means I work 22 hours, I cherish this job. Most of my time in class is enjoyable, except the time when the slow students are not paying attention.
And I just enjoy teaching students, seeing them learn what I teach, I am happy. And kids are happy creatures, I like to be around kids.
My students are from ten-year old to 18-year old!
I'm glad you find your job fulfilling!
That makes sense that you picked something you liked, but money increases your motivation.
I do have problems though with people who want
to feel like martyrs for working at a job they hate (The OP's husband is not like this at all, neither are you GP! I'm just giving an example of a bad attitude some people have). People want to "slave away" because it makes them feel morally superior to others...As in, "look what I have to sacrifice to provide for my family, blah blah blah." Some people, like the OP's husband, really DO have to sacrifice things. Others, like the people I'm trying to describe, DON'T have to. They have the power to pursue a job they really love, but CHOOSE not to because they want all the brownie points for their "suffering."
...ANYWAY, back to the original topic.
To the OP, I'm sorry that you're so stressed with the GMAT! Are you taking any prep classes or doing self study? I had to study for a similar standardized test last summer, and self studied. It does take a lot of motivation, but for me it was a better decision than paying Kaplan thousands of dollars. Regardless of your study method, I think it's important to actually make yourself a physical schedule to follow. Don't just "study," but make an outline, like "today I will read these 2 chapters and do 10 practice problems" or whatever. If you have a concrete task to complete, you're less likely to daydream or revert back to worrying. It's easy to worry if you see piles of work in front of you, but if you only have two more problems and then you're done for the day, you'll finish those two problems! Try and put yourself on a daily study schedule and make the decisions about what to do each day at the start of each week or at the start of each month...If you have time, you could make yourself a whole 2-month schedule in one sitting.
If it makes you feel any better, I studied less than 2 months altogether for my test, so you have plenty of time!
One other tip: try and do one practice test per week at the library or something. It will get you used to the format and also give you feedback on your progress.
Last tip for stress relief: try doing a brief yoga session before you study to clear your mind. There are free yoga classes online that you can try. I find that yoga is a great way to calm down and center myself (I'm kind of into that hippy stuff though lol!)