Where do I go wrong????
You know, reading all of these posts on here, listening to friends, I really dont get relationships??
First husband - me 19, him 27 - ok, I was too young - the day I left he had his hands round my throat trying to strangle me - insecure? - you bet! He wanted stay at home housewife and kids - I wanted to carry on as we were - having fun! left him for husband No 2
Second husband - 12 yr relationship including 6 yrs marriage - him 8 yrs older than me - tried for kids - didnt happen - 7 x ivf - 1 ectopic - me bored - met guy 8 yrs younger than me - lust? - love?
No 3 - 10 yr relationship - married 5 yrs - another 7 x ivf - dont get me wrong - I didnt beg for ivf - it just happened cos we both wanted it. Husband No 3 - severe anger management issues - me on the receiving end - pleased when it ended - his choice - was I too scared to end it?
3 x squaddies - coincidence?
All 3 cheated on me.
Looking back - I never nagged, I think I am quite easy going - I find it hard to trust - but I never moaned or nagged?
If things upset husbands - I realised not to do it again - ended up walking on eggshells with No 3 so as not to upset him.
I am hard working - full time job - part time business - independant because I had to be, should I have been more girly and needy?
No 3 said I could cope on my own because I didnt need him - I had to cope, him working long hours, I tried to do everything so he could come home and relax without bothering about 'domestic chores', ok sometimes I couldnt manage to get everything done, he would go to bed early.
I just dont get it, I tried to keep him happy, I was careful what I said and did round him 'cos of his temper, he came back from Afghan and said there was more to life, he wanted to do other things and he was gone.
I am so pissed off that I put up with his crap for 10 years and then he ups and leaves just like that?
Do I want another relationship? - No.
I am happy as I am but I want a family - is that too much to ask?
I look around and people treat their partners like sh*t, no respect - yet they are happy and still together?
Where have I gone wrong?
Star signs - is there any truth in it?, me Leo, with a cancer, capricorn and virgo - all uncompatable?
Why am I looking for reasons?, failure?
Men - you want a hard working, independant woman or not?