I have never thought of it this way before. It makes sense though. Even though I feel lonely, I am no longer restrained by what my other half might say or do if I make a decision to go somewhere or to do something. I would rather be sharing my life with my wife, but if it has to be this way, so be it.
I feel similar. I would never have asked for a divorce in a million years, but since it has happened, I find that I'm not going crazy like a lot of people would. Oh sure, I've been in the dumps and felt quite low at times, but it's because of the loss of my wife and friend specifically and the loss of the life i had planned, it's not due to being alone and going stir crazy(if that makes any sense).
Female companionship is great, but I find that I am functioning ok without it so far, and I'm not sure the good is worth the stress of trying to steer a relationship in the right direction.
I wish a relationship could be like relationships with my family. We have always just existed together and are happy. My brother and I are probably as close as any two people could be. We haven't had an argument in our entire adult life(oh no, maybe that;s a bad sign that something is brewing
) We don't think about our relationship, there is no particular patting on the back, there are no particular emotions that we have to tip-toe around, etc, it just happens. Why can't all relationships be that way?
I think I'm rambling.